A little faith will do

Life's actually pretty annoying at times............. When you've forgotten about your low self esteem and you saw a pretty cute and ideal guy, you'll naturally feel happy. Furthermore, you and him have a close connection- even though you weren't close with him in the past.

But thats the past. Right now you guys talk pretty much, but all of a sudden, probably some misunderstanding occurred and he becomes upset- and there comes your low self esteem back.

I mean, yes, i have a little bit of feelings for you. I didn't care about my self esteem yet. But because of your attitude today, you made me feel so ugly and unwanted. Its ok to be angry at me, but do you need to spoil your image in front of me? I thought you were really my ideal type, but ytd I heard you msg many girls, and today I saw with my eyes that you eyed at almost every pretty girl that boarded the bus. Yes I can't be compared to them but what, Its not my fault I have small eyes and curly messy hair. I want to be skinny too. I want to be tall too. I want to have straight hair too. But is it my fucking fault?

I'm so disappointed.... Why can't any guy just stick to a girl, or if you don't like this girl just simply don't give her the wrong signals?? Why the fuck do you want girls to misinterpret your feelings and like you, leaving them hurt and whatever? I really thought you were different, but fuck those stupid guys.

I hate my baby hair. I hate my small eyes. I hate my height. I hate my weight. Lastly, I hate my emotions. Crying.... is it always the best solution?