Jillian

Hello, Jillian, this post is for you.
Please cheer up, ily loads.
Your aunt will be there in your heart, always.

I love you, and jiayou NGEEANN for the match tmr. <3

Love

I love you as much as 14 days ago.
I didnt know we only knew each other for 14 days.
I wanted you to know I'm jealous.
I apologised and you've accepted it.

Sianzx, tmr have ASSEMBLY! AND ITS WHAT YUPIN SAYS SHIT -.-
Hahhahaha I'm conferencing with some random with Yupin.
So whatever. She's being so mean to her friend yo!

Sian, keesiao the day after is nationals. Trembling my body off! :D


HAPPYBIRTHDAYVIVIEN!

&

HAPPYBELATEDBIRTHDAYRETARDEDBUTT!



WOBUPEI-EEE-OOO-EEE-OOO-EEE-OOOO :D

Ah sianz

Sian lah, tmr school reopen. I just hate seeing Mr ong and someone.
Spoil my eyesight. Shit 'em.
I didnt do math. At least science not tmr due.

I love Mdm Riza! <3

Hhahahahha She's like so good, and good in teaching too.
But I still prefer Miss Wang. Her lessons are interesting lah.
Listening to wobupei, so nice right!

I love the song, and pugongyingdeyueding. They're the love pleaze.

2. 3. 4 more days!
So happy, glad and nervous manxz ohmygosh.

I hope everything will improve man!
By the way, he is still not replying. Shit you!
Number _ is hot yay! Hahahahahh

Hello Celestine!

Hello Celestinee, here's my post!

Hahaha today was at NYJC the whole day (sianzx)
Jillian and I trained the juniors and I realised they dont like to bend too!
So I kept on shouting and someone actually said, "you didnt bend too."
Someone = NAS SEC ONE TEAM.
I was asking them to bend, anyway I am the setter (at that time ONLY)
and in the end I'll bend automatically what! wth, I dont care if you're tall okay -.-
You will still deserve a thr**h in the end,
because you're just too - Talkative.

I guess Ck knows who I'm referring to aye?
Hahah lolzx. Ahem is very cute today! Hahahha,
the ahem is referring to the one and only our team find cute :D

Hahhah, sigh I havent do my math!
I dont remember some of the formulas and I will die the day after.
Now is only 9.01 pm and I feel like sleeping alrd.
Ahhhhh shit manxz. How?

Tmr cannot slack alrd, anyway I think Science homework is kinda easy cos we can just find the info on the internet lols! :D HAhahaha I'm smart. Wait, GETTING SMARTER THAN SMART :)

Yay he replied me. So long, and he said he is still not in the mood to sms.
From ytd till now, so.... impatient (me)
and he havent reply yet!

I guess my team knows who I am talking 'bout.

Ohyah, I luv Jane and Tarzen.
And Fiona is *********sao while Jane is ******sao!
Hahahahaha! Jillian is *******sao lol!

Ahma is famous and free :)

Hahahah end.

ILOVECELESTINE许智宁 :D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D:D
And I hope Vanessa get well soon (as she have headache earlier on)
K bye peepoxz!

Everything

This is seriously, everything is happening too fast.
You made use of my trust, and you lost it.
Wait, you chose to lose it, so its not my fault.
You werent afraid to quarrel with me,
because you have your **** while I'm alone.
You even said something disappointing,
which I think its true. K I apologise for misunderstanding you,
but still, you made use of me.

You treated me nicely, but at the end of the day,
it still ends up to an ending.
A very disappointing ending.
You PROMISED me not to let the cat out of the bag,
but you still did.
I just dont understand, while the rest could,
why cant I just forget all our memories tgr
and DONT trust you? I hate myself.
But I hate you more, because you made me lose a friend.
Dont you feel at least abit guilty for it?

Or is it you're not happy with me for saying so many embarassing stuff out.
You deserved it, anyw.

I just regretted coming to this school.
I hate you and my primary school life, I swear.
Go to hell manxz, cos I dont care a shit anymore.

Hate

Ah, _ _ didnt reply me! Which means, he only smsed once today!
And the worse thing is, that was his friend who used his phone!
Wtf! Why didnt he pick up my calls too?
Its like so obvious, he's mad/irritated by me ):

What should I do? I seriously want to die now.
I only did finish the history homework,
and I havent print it. So its like, half done.
The rest I didnt even touch it at all ._.
And daddy came home shouting at my brother and me,
asking us to finish our homework BEFORE this sunday! -.-
Wth, Sunday is like my free-est day this week.
Today is Wed, leaving thurs (BBQ), fri (trg) and Sat (trg, not compulsory)
so even if I do my homework on Sat, I wont finish on time what!
Somemore it'll be better to train, nationals are on next tuesday!
WTH everything is happening just too fast manxz.

I hate homework. I wanna write in to MOE saying that hols are meant for a break and not more homework. And besides, the homework still need printing, access to internet and stuff. What if one dont have? Its like, so waste of paper. You do on computer alrd still need print out and stuff. Hols were meant for giving students (like us) to unstress ourselves, right! Who wants to join me in writing to MOE! Please tag. Cos I am very stress!

Thanks for the cooperation ;]

Hey wait people!
_ _ replied me! He was like, "eh piggy you called me ah? Yawn"
Something like that, which means...
The whole day he was asleep! Wow he's more of a pig now.
But I think cats sleep alot too, right?

Hahaha Mr Kitty!

Luv you Mr _ _!

Dinner

Hello I dont like tonight's dinner.
Its like, after training, my legs are (TIRED)!
So I was kinda lazy to buy food and anyw, I dont wanna spend big notes.
Saveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee moolah (Mondre)
hahahahahhahah.

Its obviously YOUR job to cook.
And if you didnt, you should buy.
Unless you're sick right!
But you're not. And you know I had trg earlier on.
Yet you still asked me to buy -.-

Why is competition coming so fast! I havent finish my homework ):
I only did... ONEzxszxs! Wtf. Lets die tmr. Hahaha why tmr? Idk too.

FIONA TOOOOOH.
you and your _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _!
Say me lah! stupid pm war, gonna end it. You're lame and childish hahahah.

Imy,

Looong

Hello peepozxs, I know I'm bad.
I've not blogged for 5 days?
Hahahah, too busy smsing _ _ :D
Only teammates know ;]

Today went to Vivo for Vivien's bday celebration.
Sorry Viv, I think you were angry because of me?
But the playground is seriously fun, you should try :)
K whatever.

Nationals are coming to find us,
and I dont think we can win with our standard (?)
I mean, we did improve, but not alot right?
So I must learn from the Jurong person Carolyn was saying,
pu on the floor regardless! (:

Hahahaha I realised I didnt post about what happened between YTS and us
Lol, you will laugh man people!
So fast, not even 2 weeks.
And poof! everything is Done :D

(From Jane's blog)
Fiona is going gahgah, HAHAHAHAH!

Seriously, that phrase is funny.

But, (YTS) 不好笑!
Hahahaha okay did I mention that too?
That is funnier than what I've mentioned earlier on!
We stayed for their match, (I helped coach to flip the scores!)
and after their matches, they suddenly (all 8 against 1, #5 being the 1)
不好笑! Super funny cos their voices are low and they startled us!

Hahhahahaha, okay. I think the past few days nothing really happened.
So I'll KINDA end here.


_ _ :

You are a seriously bad Kitty!
Make me wait for the replies, and said.. YOU LIKE IT! ):
You made me sad, and its YOUR fault ;]

Hahahhahhaha okay Fiona I'm done we can pm war now :D

why?

Okay everybody I'm back. I seriously dont mind typing like ytd, one whole paragraph totally chunked together. And I guess by the time you guys read till here you should know I'm gonna do that. But I wont for today. I feel sad, cause in every message to you, I have to fake a smiley face out. I dont wanna do this anymore, cause whenever I think of sad stuff, I would cry (i know I'm weak), and do you know forcing a smile when I'm crying is very, very hard? Of cos you wont know cos you've said it, its sms. No emotions. Okay the main point isnt that, but I would seriously cheer up when I see your reply, and till now, you havent reply me. I think you're busy. Sorry for the disturbance anyway.

CHENGKANG

Lol why did you see my blog without tagging! Diaos.

What can I do next?

Why cant just someone just come in to my life and save me out of all this shit I'm going thru now! I seriously want a break from all these, and June holidays were supposed to be for letting me vent my anger on some soft toy or hard wall or some disgusting shit! Sometimes I wonder, does all those that happen got to do with my changing of blogskin? I notice everytime I change my blogskin, something bad will happen. I dont mind going back to the beginning, where I'm a damn stupid nooby nerd. I want all those nerdy memories with beautiful friends back. I dont want a new life with what "in" friends but with all those pain and hurt. What I mean, I want the past back! I dont mind my first blogskin again, the one with the red ring heart shit thing, cause that's seriously nice and that time was a freaking wonderful nice dreamland with all your fairytales filled up with. I dont want to be filled with false hopes, like what Jane said. I want reality, and no one is there to be with me. I know Jasmin, Jillian, Jane, and all will, but thats what they say, do they really mean it? No one knows except for them. I dont want to know anymore facts about life, because its gonna take my life away and school is starting soon. I will have to see the idiotic boys in my class, and thats like what I dont want to. My class is not unite, so is my team. There are conflicts everywhere. And I'm delighted to know something like BLOG cause its a good place for me to vent my anger. I was thinking, what would really happen if I had transferred school in the first place? Will the new school I go be more wonderful then the current school I have now? Is it too late to transfer? How am I supposed to face all the new friends, I dont want to be a whatever-dont-care girl anymore. But the more I care, the more trouble I'll get into. If I dont care, troubles would come and find me. Even Vishal changed. I changed too, for the worse. I cried more than last year, and I couldnt help it. I can stop myself last year, like help cause I really, really gotta give up now. I dont know what I'm talking about, and I dont care. But I wanna change the heckcare attitude in me, and what on Earth can happen to change me! Who can be my real life saver? I need the passion for Volleyball, I have somehow found abit of it in my heart. I want to die but not give up Volleyball, so its somehow I'm living for Volleyball. But what use, if the team are having conflicts everywhere! Help. I want the primary school life back. Or I shall pray that I will get banged by a car one day. Please save me whereever you are Mr Life Saver.

Sorry to have made you felt so terrible in your msg,
I didnt want to. You just sound so nice, and I dont want to have false hopes for you.
I am just a sec two while you're like -- years old.
You're not childish or whatever anymore.

Hope you understand.

Wooo!

Wooo people. I would wanna see D35M0ND in real life!
Thats because he've seen me before and I didnt!
UNFAIR BOOTS. (Lol idk why boots, randomly thought of it)

SORRY DESMOND, JILLIAN AND MUMMY! ):
And I'm sorry to Yupin, for unable-ing to attend the camp! ):

So sad this few days, and yeah, I wanna know why too.
Perhaps my volley skills deproved? Maybe.
Yeah, I think so too! I need to 铺 like the Presby high libero.

Jiiay0us J0y, c0s iie noex euu can d0 iit! :)

Okay I'm like twiting to myself -.-


I wanna watch Kungfu panda with my lil' brother! :D
Who want watch with me and my hilarious lil' bro?! :)
Gladly welcomed!

Faint.

Hello, I've gotta blog about ytd!

Training
It wasnt very bad, until I was over there, sitting alone on stage.
Trying to get back my normal pace of breathing.
The kinda kind teacher helped me with it, or else I might not be here now.
I almost faint and perhaps die.
Improper breathing is the worse shit man.
But when I was alone having some thoughts of my own,
many kind souls, repeatedly asking if I'm alright.
Thanks kind souls. Your kindness are much appreciated.
And all of the thoughts, let me thought of how temperamental I was
of the past few days. Esp to the Sec one guy.
I didnt know I changed so much. I would tolerate with it
if I was still P5/6, but why the change?
Who could I ask about this?

Anyway, sorry.

I luv Jillian and I hope you and FJGLLYJLW would be alright! :)
I luv papa and mama, haha.
I learnt it from small kiddo and I sound like her now! ZXSZXS

Forgot,

Haha forgot to mention ytd saw Jiaolian outside the temple. LOL
He was just passing by, Haha my family say He's tall! DUH -.-

Horrible mah

Ohmygosh.
Cant believe I actually lost $22+ of Mahjong!
Ah BBL. Bye Beginner Luck.
Siannn, seriously dont feel like playing alrd.
Not I give others to win I still need to pay. WL!

Piang.

K nvm!

Supposed to go Hougang Sports Hall today I think.
But I was at my ahma's house, and I didnt saw the msg till 9pm +.
Sorry! But I do wanna know who went! :)

06/06/2008

Today is supposed to be a fun-filled day!
Cos' it has the both sixes.
But whatever lah hor.

Viwawa-ing with Lyanna, Ck and Ck (LOL)
Kinda fun, Ck very quiet. (M)
Ck win one time wor (F)! :D

Haha, Celestine Koh so happy cos she won 3/4 of mahjong.
Okay Wahjong.

I luv her, I support her woohoo!

Jasmin :
You know I will be there for you forever.
And I dont want you to be sad or whatever based on that.
Many ... are doing that too.
So I hope you (dont cry) HAHA.
Okay I know you wont.
But I want you to know that no matter what,
my shoulder will be there for you! :D

I lurve you <3

...

I have tried my best.
I just cannot take it anymore,
Why is everyone attacking me while I'm in a sad mood?
I dont like it, like who will?

I tried to hold back my tears,
for many, many times of my life.
And most of the time, I would succeed.
Today, is one of the exceptions.

To that guy, you apologised?
Do you think that an apology from you can settle every thing?
How about the pain you've caused me.
You say stop, I've stopped but you continue,
So what can I do but to continue too?

You didnt attack her. Why?
Is it because she have her boyf beside her and you're afraid?
So its easier to attack me cos I have no boyf lah!
What? 3 boys against 1 girl leh.
She never even help. Just watch.

Of cos I would get angry lah.
Only if you're my friend for a long time then I would seriously put up with it.
But the problem is I just know you TODAYand you expect me
to have all the bad attention to myself?
What? I may be the clown, but I have my own ways to be one.

So shut up, next time think before you talk.

You didnt help me, so you keep quiet too.


I shouldnt have went to that place. Idiotic and infuriating.
Wait, I shouldnt have even gone out in the first place.
I didnt even get to exit that place at 18.30,
So I dont see any reasons that I was supposed to go.
We werent even allowed to get in.
What are we? Dogs?
I was even treated like this. Crap.
I hate you, random stranger I know today.

Whatever, now my confidence went even lower and dont ask why.
I hate boys. They suck.
Handsome-ity doesnt give you the right to laugh at people, fool.

Shouldnt waste my time posting about you in my blog.

feuds.

Everyone make it sounds like my fault then when I say it,
they say they dont mean it.
So what for you ppl say it in the first place!

That guy dont believe that I like him as a friend before,
and made me felt so sad and apologised.
Like what? Talked to me on Msn so may times and say that,
What the hell!

Okay, I'm not angry nor petty or wtv you may call me,
but its just that suddenly 2 ppl said something that hurt my heart
at the same time and I dont know what's in their heart.
Like how am I supposed to take it cos' I'm not really close to them!

It just reflects on how good or how bad I am as a friend.

I dont care anymore -.-

Tooday!

Haha, spent the whole day at Celestine's.
Celestine, Liyeng and I gambled, haha (oops, I know we shouldnt) .
But! We gambled using 10 cents and the max, 20 cents.

Haha, Celestine said she thought Mahjong was hard but no.

Ytd we spent our night at Fio's,
Played Mahjong and 21 points.
Fiona is the big cheater cos' she peeps at others' tiles
And change cards when the card exceeded!

How cheat could a 13 year old cheater could get.

Today, we played 21 points first,
and I lost most of my money there.
But, I still did win alittle!

After that we played Mahjong with Carolyn.
Cos' 3 lack 1, and Hui Bing dont know how to play.
So we played with her! :D

And guess what. (haha here I go again)
We played 4 rounds in total and Carolyn won all.
Poor us.

We decided to forget playing for a moment
and drop over to WS for some food.
I cant buy cos' I lost so much money!
At that time, I was left with $0.50 -.-
So poor.

Haha, but after that Liyeng and I
taught Celestine and HuiBing how to play DaiDee.
And I won half of the money I won there.

After that we continued with 21 points,
and I won the rest.

Pro, is what I am.
Not (: