We need more time

Last published post : 30 May

Hehe, I like my second zilian pic, nono I mean my skin colour! Like tan, whoa I luv it.

Hi everyone guess what. My MT Os started and ended today! Ok not really, but paper 1 and paper 2 over:)

Walao guys damn biased why you can drink I can't drink? Drinking not smoking leh, plus I seldom drink unlike you guys WHY I CANNOT DRINK?!

Am I still very fat? Anyone give me suggestions to slim down? I need to go on diet BUT THE FOOD ALL SO TEMPTING!!! HOW. I know! Go gym/jog/swimming right! But now got menses so annoying w8 till my mense stop! ^^

I almost did something silly......

Anyone wanna go WWW? AND I DIDNT WATCH THE LAST SONG, WTF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >:( Shit man I should stop being soooooooooooooo vulgar. Or else vulgarities can't describe how I feel in the future HAHAHA. Ok ciaoz babies and I'm not so emo today! Cos he cared about me- telling me not to drink (BUT I STILL WANT TO DRINK HEHE STUBBORNGAL1994!)

Of a girl with a broken heart

Last published post : 28 May

I wanna leave this place......... Maybe seperating from you for a moment would help. Fuck all this shit why did I even enter your life? I have to leave. Why am I even so obsessed with you? I don't want to forget you but I want to. I want to be with you but I want you to be with her. I want you to be happy but I don't want to be sad. Maybe, maybe I don't know you well enough.. Thats why. I'll try to forget you.

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因误解而结婚 因了解而离婚

Starting to get back

Last published post 20 May

Sorry blog I'm sorry to use you as a spare tyre. But I srsly have no other places to type/write/express how I feel..... He's always reading and he'll ask me. But I can't tell him, I can't be selfish to let him know and make him worry about me! He already have his own worries. Haiz, I don't want to feel emo either. I hope I am pms-ing. I really do becos I h8 this side of me. I h8 being uncertain and I h8 having the low-self-esteem feeling. I don't want to get in too deep, I know he still likes her. I know. But why am I still so obsessed?! MT Os are a fucking 3 days away and I'm here getting all upside down over him. I can't tell him how I feel, I can only change subject. I don't want things to change between us now, I know he doesn't like me but I just want to see him smile! At least right now, he's smiling. I can't bear to tell him how I feel and make him lose his smile; at the same time me losing a gr8 friend. Maybe I really misread his intention of just being friends -> more than friends. Wtf is wrong with me. I hope I'm pms-ing.

But why does my heart skip a beat when I see his name? I'm constantly looking at things that remind of him.. And my mind just keep replaying memories we have? I can't be selfish; I must let him have his freedom. All I'm afraid of is- him leaving me.

Maybe the only way to stop feeling this way: fuck my own life and get of of his.

My heart lost to you

Last published post : 8 May

Sorry for not updating much! I'm lazy. Guess what's happening in my life right now? Intensive MT, right. Besides that? That SMFCCB emo shit side of me again.

I'm sorry but I really can't take it. I want you to be happy, and I'm happy. But I h8 it when you get so damn sad over her, it makes me feel so replaced. I'm what, a substitution? Oh yah, I forgot we're just friends and they said, "Friends will be there for each other." Wtf. I know you'll never read this space and I lost so much readers, which probably allow me to post up certain stuff with guts. There's only you in my life right now, you helped me find the way back into love, you motivated me into coming sch. But at the same time you'll push me deep down further and never save me, plus do stupid things that make me h8 sch. Ironic, isn't it? I told you I'm strong. I'm not. You believed me, thanks. But no girls, NO GIRLS, is ever strong. All has a weak point. Yes you said I don't understand you enough, thats true. I guess time is a factor; it isn't enough. But I'm staying put, I'm turning stronger. Maybe you're affected by the sentence "Thanks for wasting my time" that I've advised, because you probably know you'll never like me. Thanks for even paying attention.

I'm lazy to say more, shall go sleep and replenish my energy. Tmr will be a brand new day! I look forward to tmr baby.

What if............... I die tmr?

Hi everyone, i'm officially posting for Jocelyn because her blog is so dead. It's so easy to blog but she seldom does it anymore sigh, so we're over at subway with Celestine, Sweekee and Huibing, apparently we are always doing our studying here so its kinda not a big deal.

'Nyway i know Jocelyn loves me, so i'm gna post for her. I LOVE JANE HEHE :)

<3

There's not enough room for u and for me

Hi all! Sorry for not updating for a while:/ Well I'm specially updating this for Jane and Celestine!

Funny scenerio we made

1: Fuck you la

2: Cannot la, shag sia

1: Why cannot!!!!

2: WHY CANNOT CAN

HAHAHAHA I THINK ITS FUNNY.

Anyway, last night was a horror; I had a nightmare:( I dreamt that Ngee Ann collapsed and I don't see any of my friends!!!! >: I felt so scared, even now, I'm a lil' afraid having the thought to go school.

Mosquitoes attacked my leg last night.