Getting abandoned

Happy 15th,
I love you.

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I don't know why. I've been feeling so empty since yesterday. Trying to tell myself to smile, indeed I did, thanks to the Muds in my class. I laughed and played, but still, I will check my phone. No replies.

I don't know what happened. People will just ask me, why do I look so emo, sad, spiritless today. And I couldn't force an answer out, besides I'm alright.

I don't understand why I always lie.

Supposedly I should be smiling like some crazy asshole getting married or or striking lottery ten millions dollars or or some enemy of mine died! But I wasn't. I didn't. I am still sane. Why do I always feel, missing someone kills?

Its like you've been waiting a whole year when you only did for one day. And still no avail.

I also realised, I've been listening to English songs more than Chinese now. I feel so sad, I feel so lost. I can't find myself.

Stop the emo post.

Purpleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee Purpleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee Siaozzxsxsszx. Sigh! Urgh forget it.

Overcome your own fear

I feel happy today, idk why! I think I found a new goal in life. Actually, two!! Hahaha. I'm gonna go vegetarian with Ck and F yay! I'll slim sooooooooooooooon.

Too bad I'm not telling you the other one. Hahahah, Wayne has forgiven me, yay woohoo yippee!!!! (This is not the second thing)

And he likes to sleep -.- sleep also can turn off comp haha noob.

Today wasn't very pleasant though. Though I my phone got batt, no one cares. Hah!

Everything's over and you see my smile again

I'm getting fatter and heavier each day, oh dear just when can I ever slim down at this rate!!!

Urgh anyway training was fun because I get to play today! At least I perspired, a little. And Jiaolian VERY smart cause he let me play on days I never bring extra jersey to change. Wow.

Frogjumps sucks. Now my thighs ache like siao. Owwwww

Oh Jillian and I both agree that the Dunman lady teacher in charge is actually very pretty, imagine having a chio and young teacher as your CCA in charge hahahah. (Actually we have before, Miss Serene Wang and Miss Susana Tan)

And I shouted

"Tuts my barreh" (HAHAHAH www.struckonthoughts.blogspot.com)

Anyway I'm at Sam's house now hahaha. Okay he's like watching Avatar (lol) and he says he likes it, same as Weicong!

Okay lame. I'll update again later! :)


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I just reached home! I went Ivan's house after that, and I received hongbao ($10 siol) hahahaha. But I never bring oranges!

And we banluk all the way until don't know what time with Ivan's mom being the banker hahaha. After awhile Ivan's 2nd brother (if I'm not wrong) brought his friends back and we played tgr.

I won a lil' I guess. I started with lesser than 10 bucks!

Okay we had pizza(s) for dinner and it was VERY filling. Total cost for 4 people = $70++

Can't wait for tmr morning to come, yay! I will see you guys at Mac :)

Maybe its just me

He's the reason for the teardrops on my guitar, now you should know how sorry I am. Sorry W, I betrayed your trust. I know I don't deserve a chance to even ask you for another one, but if I ever got the guts, I'll ask you to forgive me.

Joosecee says:
Because you trusted me, I betrayed your trust and I'm sorry for that. I don't blame you if you get angry at me, because its normal to be under this kind of situation.

I just can't find a better word than sorry. Sorry.

-I'm going to watch movie with Ivan, Chowlin, Jillian and Lyvia. (Bride Wars) And I'm a lil' upset because I still haven't watch anything with you. Also a lil' disappointed because of this reason I can't say.

The night falls and you lie on my shoulder

Celebrated Phebe's birthday ytd, Happy Birthday Be!
Oh and same for Rongshun, brother! ^^

I overslept today, and didn't go for the friendly match. I'm so sorry all!

Intolerable past will never change

I've not been updating this blog for quite a long time and I was about to post about previous stuff when something happened and I don't feel like doing it.

I trusted the wrong person and only have myself to blame. Right? Sigh.

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We were both young when I first saw you
I close my eyes
And the flashback starts
I'm standing there
On a balcony in summer air

See the lights
See the party, the ball gowns
I see you make your way through the crowd
And say hello
Little did I know

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you please don't go.. and I said

Chorus:
Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say yes

So I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet cause we're dead if they knew
So close your eyes
Escape this town for a little whi..ile

Oh oh-

Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
But you were everything to me
I was beggin' you please don't go and I said

CHORUS-

Romeo save me, they're tryin' to tell me how to feel
This love is difficult, but it's real!
Don't be afraid
We'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story baby just say yes

Oh oh

I got tired of waiting
Wonderin' if you were ever coming around
My faith in you is fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town, and I said

Romeo save me I've been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you but you never come
Is this in my head?
I don't know what to think
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring and said-

Marry me Juliet you'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know!
I talked to your dad, go pick out a white dress
It's a love story baby just say yes!

Oh oh
Oh oh oh

Cause we were both young when I first saw you...

You got my trust and gave it back

Look how tanned I became. I'm so ugly don't comment.

Kahang

Hi Sumardi and Cindy

mountain peak

Yay pics! (L)

They said 58 but I didn't believed

I survived KOREF's toilet! I think I deserve some clapping right?

I tolerated my bladder's urine and shit for 3 days. But I did pee la duh lol. I AM FREAKING TIRED RIGHT NOW.

Oh and my instructor name is Sam ; "Sorry but this is just a test." (Pushes Sam but he doesn't fall) I did that because Charlene feels that he look very weak and wanna try if he could fall if I just push him hahaha. Cindy came up with the line. And Cindy said maybe he's so weak that when we just touch his arm it'll be fractured. LOL!

Also, the stars rocked okay. I swear you cannot see those stars in Singapore. Malaysia's stars rocks man. :)

Anyway of all the activities for the camp I liked the bus trip the most, (If its counted as one) because I can sleep!!! :D

(OH I KNOW A SECRET OF MY TENTMATES. - Cindy. Charlene. Joanna. Sam Hew. QJ.) THEY ALWAYS "LOL"!

I was so pissed by the lols.

HAMKA SASHAYS OKAY! AND SOMETHING THAT I LEARNT ABOUT KHALID - (in the tone) KHALID~

Best about the camp, I felt accomplished for the mountain climbing.


3R7 rock my sock.

I admire you from a distance when you count your fingers

SEE THE BANNER I DID FOR JAROD (YOU BETTER APPRECIATE IT.)

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I HAVEN'T DO MY HOMEWORKKKKKKK!!!!

Anyway was cooped at home all day because I doing Jarod's banner. Everyone's so lazy to do it! I'm only doing one big one and three A4 paper size for his 李奕贤, one paper for one letter hahaha. I think it looks like it's printed!!

I hate Art; I realised I only did one pattern. See how worse my art can get omggggg.

And all thanks to Liyeng and Celestine that I updated this blog! Woohoo. Ohyah and I started Livejournal for fun (I'm still using this blog) http://famousahma.livejournal.com/ just visit k! :)

Bring me down to the ground

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NGYONGHAO! :) you're 15 hahaha.


Weicong asked me why am I counting the days today. Its like I don't count and since I'm already counting this, might as well count all the way! And we can celebrate like 100 days hahaha. Today 51 days already, (wow so long after Hk trip) (and I miss Hk's hotel!)

Actually nothing much happened today in school. Just that E almost fight with Joseph idk why. Yet I can't stop them because I don't even talk to E. But they stop, thank God.

Yes I am feeling so tired now, anyway I got a spare piece of Maths Hol homework already! Yay thanks to the teacher that helped us. We even requested her to help us photocopy 3 sets. So troublesome we are, aren't we? (We = Kelly Shuqi and I)

To my dearest Celestine, yes we both shouldn't give up, though I know I've got no more chance. (I didn't even had one) You still have, so you cherish that chance, okay? Hope you stay happy. Oh and I'm giving up. Really.

Oh and here's my New Year resolution (My first year of having resolutions. I don't do these.)
1) To pass every sub esp Science and Maths
2) To hand in every homework I can
3) To slim down
4) Bring Joy to everyone ^^ (my fave)
5) Never give up
6) And never show my emotions (except being happy)

Yay school's being a bore now because I've got to hand in SS and EL by Mon. And Science too. Great.
Science - Undone
Maths - Undone
EL - Undone
SS - Done

And to mention, I've not read my chinese book. Test is due Mon. Shit. SS is my only work done anyway.

Hope I'll pass all. And hope Tues' art attendance is full. :) (Including Vishal k!) :)

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*Edited -> I'm gonna maple with Jillian Sara and Celestine yay! :D

Oh and I didn't expect Sam to actually remember what he was doing while we parted from Pui Kiu College..
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How gentle is the rain
that falls softly on the meadow
birds high up on the trees
serenade the clouds with their melodies

oh

see there beyond the hill
the bright colors of the rainbow
some magic from above
made this day for us
just to fall in love

you'll hold me in your arms
and say once again you'll love me
and that your love is true
everything will be just as wonderful

now

I belong to you
from this day until forever
just love me tenderly
and I'll give to you every part of me

oh

don't ever make me cry
through long lonely nights without us
be always true to me
keep this day in your heart eternally

you hold me in your arms
and say once again you love me
and that your love is true
everything will be just as wonderful

How do I live without your breathing

Hi I am back.. From school! And I realised I am very very sensitive nowadays! Maybe because of PMS. Okay I shall stop showing emotions till my mense ends.

Anyway, there's no POA tuition today and idk why. Sorry Jasmin will give you the letter tmr. Come ask from me!

I need to do my homework. NOW. okay a while more my feet = pins and needles = OUCH!


Cheers for my new goodfriend ; stick. :]

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We were both young when I first saw you
I close my eyes
And the flashback starts
I'm standing there
On a balcony in summer air

See the lights
See the party, the ball gowns
I see you make your way through the crowd
And say hello
Little did I know

That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you please don't go.. and I said

Chorus:
Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say yes

So I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet cause we're dead if they knew
So close your eyes
Escape this town for a little whi..ile

Oh oh-

Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
But you were everything to me
I was beggin' you please don't go and I said

CHORUS-
Romeo save me, they're tryin' to tell me how to feel
This love is difficult, but it's real!
Don't be afraid
We'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story baby just say yes

Oh oh

I got tired of waiting
Wonderin' if you were ever coming around
My faith in you is fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town, and I said

Romeo save me I've been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you but you never come
Is this in my head?
I don't know what to think
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring and said-

Marry me Juliet you'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know!
I talked to your dad, go pick out a white dress
It's a love story baby just say yes!

Oh oh
Oh oh oh

Cause we were both young when I first saw you...

When you get so high you scream your love

Yes I'm very very depressed now. I hope my ma ma can get well soon. And my nyanya is not home! I'm really hungry. :(

I've not touched my homework yet.

Anyway, we were on our way home from training and 2 things happened. One a funny incident and the other, a kindof sad one. (for viv la)

1) We were waiting for bus 39 to come since we trained at Dunman. So when 39 came, we all board the bus anxiously as the bus was filled with people..

And also, most people would actually remember what they are actually doing when they are boarding a bus, like tapping a card. Viv did that too.

Apparently she forgot something though. She was taking out her purse I guess..

And... Viv dropped her phone.

Under the bus.

A bus.!!!

And Celestine tapped her card for her lololol! In the end she didn't take that bus. But Celestine and I alighted next stop and waited for her because her shoebag was with Ck. And she's alone so yah. HER PHONE COVER GOT CRUSHED. (but not her phone)

2) We saw Jiakang, YongJian, one of our primary school friend, Laksa (not Yongjian's) and one more random friend of theirs. The bus was crammed so we took whatever seat we could. And Viv sway sway kena a seat that got bug hahahaha. those type look like babycockroach one omg yuck.

Okay anyway Ck was alighting first and so Viv and I took the next 2 empty seater and Jiakang's random friend, stood up.

Celestine : No I'm alighting next, I'm not sitting.
Random Guy : Er I'm alighting too.
Celestine face blushes and Viv and I started laughing.

ps/ She talked kinda loud.


And youknowwhat?

She didn't alight at her stop. She alighted the next one hahahahahah! :D

She's very funny, damn hilarious!

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Anyway I'm sort of regreting now because of something. Okay bye! Means I'm wasting time. Imy.

Give me a chance to say goodbye

Welcome the best post for the year, hahahah. Promise me, babys, hang out tgr even we're apart.

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